Winding the year down and staying positive

Staying positiveWith less than two weeks to go in 2015, I am reminded that as every year in recent memory has come to a close, my better half and I jokingly say the upcoming year will finally be our year.

Relatively speaking, our life is not terrible.

We have a roof over our heads. We both have jobs. We have two relatively reliable vehicles. Our health is okay.

There are many people in this world who have far less than we do and many others who have suffered recent tragedies that will make the holiday season far less enjoyable and possibly even unbearable. My heart aches for those folks.

Our life is good, but not great

As for us, I think we’ve settled for mediocrity for far too long. We’ve become content with just getting by.

We both have jobs that we do not like, working for companies that really don’t give a crap about it’s people. Unfortunately, more and more companies seem to view their employees as resources to be sucked dry and eventually discarded.

Travel and nights out on the town are few and far between. We have let ourselves become trapped in a life with little excitement and joy when there are so many things in this world that can be explored and appreciated.

The fact that we don’t have much in the way of expendable income is responsible for much of that, but we’ve let things get so bad we don’t even take the time to enjoy the free things in life that are enjoyable. That’s just sad and needs to end.

Time for change

I’m a firm believer that we all have the ability be great at something and to have an exceptional life.

Some have more challenges to overcome than others, but the potential is there for everyone.

You don’t have to be a genius in this world to make a splash.

Somewhere along the road to adulthood, our dreams of a wonderful life get pounded and pushed to the back of our minds and remain just that, dreams. We end up with bills to pay, jobs to do, and responsibilities to meet.

When I was growing up and into my early twenties, I had such high hopes for my life and the things I wanted to do and be.

Some how, some way, I let those hopes and dreams be stolen from me and they were replaced with stress, fear, pain, and nearly two decades of a wasted life. I withdrew into a shell that has been very difficult to break out of and essentially shut down mentally, emotionally, and physically.

I was essentially dead. I was a burden to my spouse and of no use to my friends. I’m still fighting to turn this around and have a long way to go to fix myself. The mind is a tricky thing once it gets you in this type of position.

As 2016 approaches, I think I’ve finally started progressing towards having the ability to actually make this new year a better year, for real.

With all the challenges I have going on inside my head, I don’t really know how my internet pursuits will unfold or how quickly I will get where I need to be. However, I do have a very good feeling that this will be a year of great strides personally and professionally.

I don’t necessarily expect to undo decades of mental decay in just a few months(although it is possible). What I do expect is that I will continue to focus on my progress and not let myself lapse back into the hopeless state that I am now emerging from.

I am quite positive that I’ll be able to look back on 2016 in a way that I haven’t been able to look back on the majority of the last 20 years, fondly.

Even though 2015 is ending with my circumstances still in the unacceptable state that they’ve been in for a long time now, it’s ending with true hope for a much better 2016 and beyond. I know there will be many bumps along the way, but I am more confident than ever that I won’t let those stop me as they have in the past.

Cheers to a positve end to 2015 and a better 2016+.

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